Not for a Moment

Is it just me, or has this year absolutely flown by? I'm sitting here, still trying to grasp the fact that we are half way through December. It's just been a completely insane year.

I'm not going to lie, this has been a hard, hard year. My family has all had to deal with some rough health issues. A precious 4 year old that I know lost her battle to cancer. My best friend was diagnosed with stage 4 cancer. I realized half way through finishing my degree that I hated the field I was going into. I quit my management job that caused me more stress than any job should ever have to cause. Honestly, the list goes on and on.

But man, has God been so good. My family is all alive and kicking. That 4 year old outlived her life expectancy by two years and fought a darn good fight. My best friend is CANCER FREE. I'm currently in a degree program that I love and will still graduate early. I've become a nanny to the most wonderful, crazy little boys. My life is amazing.

And honestly, the good list just continues. I've gotten to travel so much this year. I started dating this awesome guy who pushes me in my walk with God. I've been accepted to go on a mission's trip next year. God has never once left me high and dry, not for a moment. His grace simply overwhelms me to the point of tears. He doesn't have to be this good to me. But he is.

If there is one thing that I have learned this year, it's to sit back and trust. I have no reason to worry. My God has carried me through the hard times in life and rejoices with me in the good. He will never, ever forsake me. I may not understand everything that goes on in this world, but I don't have to. He does. And I am so excited to see what next year will hold for me.

Not for a Moment, by Meredith Andrews: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qoh26pC2RT8

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