Change

I have always prided myself on being someone who loves change. However, in these few days that I have been serving in mission's I have found that that's not entirely true. I love change, when it's on my terms. I love to get in the car and go on a road trip, or visit a new museum, and see new places. But when it comes to change that is out of my control? Well that is a different story.

These past few days have been stretching. I have had to adapt to things that I would not normally choose to. I've battled terrible headaches, lack of sleep, amongst other things that would normally make me into an altogether unpleasant person. But, I have been striving to not let these things take me over. I have been learning and growing. God uses the moments where we are at our worst to manifest His Glory at its best. Over these next two months, I will have a lot of things that are out of my control. I will not get to do things as I would normally choose. I will be trying things that make me uncomfortable. But guess what? It's not about me. It's about God. It's about His glory. So none of this is about me or what I desire. The following verse is becoming my theme for the summer and what I am clinging to as my weakness and my sin is so apparent to me.

"But he said to me, 'My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.' Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weakness, so that Christ's power may rest in me."

2 Corinthians 12:9

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